love

I believe in love. Or at least I used to believe in love. No, that's not true. I still believe in love. The truth is, I believe in the power of love. I believe that all creation is the continuous outflowing manifestation of God's love. I believe all that exists, including you and I, are literally made of love. I believe that love truly is the energy that makes the world go 'round. I believe that every event in life can be measured by its alignment with or against love. And when things are fully in alignment with divine love anything is possible.

But when it comes to "love" relationships it becomes so complicated and I am not so sure. I do believe that its possible for these types of relationships to exist successfully. I even believe that most of us are given many, many opportunities to create successful relationships. But I also believe that every once in awhile it is necessary for a re-balancing of love to occur. And in these rare cases something occurs that is both a horrible, heavy curse as well as a beautiful, empowering gift. You meet the one person with whom you literally are love. But unless they embrace that truth as well, you are left simply with the curse of knowing that the ultimate love found you lacking and walked away.

I never will regret having experienced the ultimate and most powerful divine love. But there are times when I wonder if I really am powerful enough to carry such a burden. I wonder if I am to feel honored or angry that this has fallen to me. I cannot say that I did not request it because I know that I did. I was naive and foolish. But even with all my wisdom and clarity I don't believe I would do anything differently. This gift, this curse is mine and I will carry it for the remainder of my life. And when my life upon this planet is snuffed out like a candle my flame will flicker and remember the promise made to me before time existed and I know I won't spend the eternities alone.