"... other peoples faults are nothing to do with you..." These words of wisdom were given to me in the form of coaching regarding some lessons a loved one of mine is experiencing. It is in my history to try and stand in the way of the painful lessons of those I love. I haven't done this to be better than, but more from a stand of misqualified energy that I thought was love. What I am beginning to awaken to is the truth that each person has his or her own personal lessons and experiences to generate. I've heard phrases such as "If it is to be it is up to me and my committed action" and only just began to tune in to the fact that it doesn't say "If you can't do it, Emma will". As far back as I can remember in this life I have wanted to please others. Perhaps it comes from a childhood where I became a sister before I was even one year old. I guess at some level I decided even then that the only way I would be accepted or loved was if I was taking care of everyone else. I've been following that path blindly for a long time. And just recently I found a light switch and finally see that this hamster wheel I have been making myself sick on is just an illusion that I don't have to live anymore. I can get off anytime I choose. I am not responsible for the choices of others...no matter how much I love them. I am only accontable for my own choices and results. Its ok if I experience results I do not enjoy because that is sometimes part of learning. And its ok if my loved ones choose painful results too. That doesn't mean I have failed them and certainly does not mean that I need to rush in to save them. It does not mean that I am a horrid person if I give them a hug and let them experience and deal with their results. Some times the greatest love I can give is to trust them to be able and willing to handle the bumps in the journey of their lives. I trust that they will do the same for me.
I AM Kyrosa, the Light of Truth
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