my worst fear

A fear is simply a belief that--regardless of how much of it is based in fact--is fundamentally not true. The thing about fear is that we give it an amazing amount of power. We often act according to our fears. Fears are the things that keep us hiding in the shadows or out in the limelight pretending to be someone we're not. Fears keep us from owning our voice. Fears keep us small. A fear doesn't even need to have any basis in fact for us to feed it like a hungry baby. So, what would happen if we took that same energy and fed our passions, our dreams, our most fervent wishes instead of our fears? And furthermore, what would it really be like if those deep seated fears we have actually came true? I'm not talking about the ones that actually cause injury, but the fears that keep us from speaking our truth or from pursuing our dreams. You know the fears I am talking about. These fears are self-created, self-fueled, self-deceptive lies that are completely perpendicular to who we really are. In fact their very purpose is to give us the resistance we require so that we know who we really are. Our fears reveal the truth. What fears control you? Which ones keep you small; trapped in box much too small to contain the magnificence of who you are?

For me it is the fear of not being acceptable, lovable, worthy.....sounds like the same thing to me. Along with that, I have the fear that if I fully embrace my power and what I feel is my purpose that either I will fail and find out I am just as worthless as I fear or worse I will succeed and find out that I have a purpose larger than waking up each day and that I have failed to fulfill it. The ironic thing is that although my fears are the last thing I want to come true they are the first thing I focus my creative energy on and thus the very thing I breathe life into. And my life is a reflection of the power of who I am, anything I choose to focus my creative energy on soon becomes reality. So, recognizing this truth, it seems foolish to pretend that I don't know where in my life I deserve to focus my energy. I do. I know my path. It is the one that leads me toward my dreams and passions and directly through my fears. The direction I am most afraid of walking.

It is up to me to choose when I am ready to take the risk of embracing my fears. I already know what the worst that could happen is......my fear has told me and prepared me for it. And you know what? In recent years I have experienced some of my worst fears coming true and not only survived, but instead discovered a new level of my power, my worth, my purpose. So in this moment I say that its time for new choices, new experiences, new results. That would be new!

I AM the Light of Truth